I´m really annoying

There´s another thing that doesn´t allow me to make good friends. My parents. One friend invited me to a new year eve party and guess what, I can´t go. (And you´ll be like "but don´t make such a drama because you can´t go to one party" . The truth is that I just go out one or twice a month because I always need to take care of my siblings). Here is the reason of why I can´t : "Me and your mother wanted to go out but your mother didn´t want to leave you alone. So it´s because of you that we stay at home". Well that would´ve worked if it wasn´t because I´m always alone every new year eve. My parents are at home, but it still feels like they´re far away. And many times they have been working. So I wanted for the first time in my life, to be around people and start the new year having fun, not going to bed crying while everybody is outside celebrating and throwing fireworks. But no, I have to stay at home and try so hard to not let the tears come out and to force a smile. But you can´t understand how I feel unless you are in my situation, I´m sure you think I´m exaggerating